Bite Me…

Remember when Ro finally got to meet
her idol, Bab’s and she opened with the line,
oh heck, something like “for all of you out there,
dreams do come true”. Just spilling over
with tears that she could not control.

Well that is how I feel. About so many different
things lately. It swells to overflowing.
There is too much, too much of it all.
From graduation, to Kate leaving, to this
possible trip this summer to Michigan, to
Becky and her loss. A roller coaster ride
I feel as if I am on in some respects.
Even with my work, it’s up one day and
down the next, good days and bad with no
real schedule of time to do it.

I am dizzy from it all. I’m blaming it
on hormones and life in general. It just
feels all consuming to me right now.
I escape to the studio, to music, turning
it loud to surround me. I close my eyes and
feel it, my meditation, musically enhanced.
It stops the thoughts and I can just listen to
the melody, the instruments, and rest my
tired brain. The push and pull of maintaining
relationships with several people in my life is
exhausting me.

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Our plans for today are changing.
It was to be a family outing day to make up for a
crappy mothers day. But now, Hilary has been asked
to stay at school longer than the 1pm let out time
(due to finals) Her choir director wants them to
practice for the last Women’s Choir performance,
till at lest 2pm. (she is a member of 3 choirs)
So I said fine, we will just go an hour later.

Then I picked Kate up today and she got in the car
saying she has agreed to be back at work today at 4!
Totally forgetting our plans, though I reminded her last night.
She wouldn’t have forgotten if it was a party with friends,
she would never miss one of those, but her mom’s, pfftttt.
just sayin.

So really, at this point I am going to take Jan and we will
go by ourselves. They really made no effort to make mothers
day or this alternate day special for us, but mostly for Jan.
She has given us all of her for 9 years and it warrants care.
Damn it! I’m really pissed about the whole thing.
I will make today special for Jan on my own.

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Good news…
The solitude figure will be reborn in a
commission. Set in a spot in Sedona Arizona
that my client finds peaceful.
I am very excited to begin it!
I am waiting for her to send pictures of the spot.

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I love this quote….
Our lives improve only when we take chances -
and the first and most difficult risk we can take
is to be honest with ourselves.
Walter Anderson

I’m working on it!
Have a great day everyone.

Oh and Jaded, (or anyone) what did you think of
Fantasia’s performance last night on Idol?
Someone said Simon looked like he had thrown
up in his mouth. I thought it was just awful!
(the performance I mean)
WTF was that?