I remember art

It takes me away from myself, my inner angst.
I found out much about the Mother and child
tile I bought through my flickr pals.
I knew the style of the painting was familiar,
I knew I had seen a woman painted long ago in
this same style but could not place the name.
The original image was a painting by Gustav Klimt.
Google him! The artist of the tile was true to the
painting. I have chosen to do an Annie alteration,
the represented florals and leaves will be actual
leaves and flowers in glass. The remainder of it
will stay true to the painting. I am horribly and
wonderfully engrossed in this piece.
I am loving each moment. It should nicely
fill a couple of weeks of work time.
It’s much bigger than the 8 inch tile at 14 inches square.

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Michigan… No matter the angst, no matter
the unknown… they are reasons to go more than stay.
Because of that potential regret. Because other issues
matter too. The visit to Becky, the fact that L and G
have prepared surprises and events at their expense
just for us. Because I cant be so damned frightened
all the time. Much of that fear is my own lack of worth.
I know this… I feel less than, often. Yes she is often
oblivious to my angst, there is much I no longer share.
She has no idea that I worry over all of it still.
I think that is for the best. I am human. So is she.
I allow her actions or non actions to hurt me often.
That is my own crap I need to work on. I am still that
bundle of confusion daily.

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I still haven’t decided what to do with the pond.
I did go by Lowes and priced the liner options.
The pre-formed one is cheaper than it was when I
bought it five years ago at the height of pond popularity.
69 $ for the same one we have now. It’s still a job of
removing all the rock, the accents, the waterfall I
cemented in! A 10×13 foot rubber liner is 129$
We will see when we get it emptied tomorrow exactly
what we need to do. I doubt a patch of the existing one
will hold. But I will try it, just to save the work and
terror to the fish of the move!

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Hilary and Jan bought me linen crop pants for my
birthday. I wanted long linen pants but the ones
they found looked to be flare legged and they
knew I didn’t really like that. But the cropped ones
didn’t fit. In returning them I did find a white and
tan linen pant for the same price and bought those.
They are a bit of a flare, but they do make my legs look
slimmer so I went for it.

I also picked up a nice pink short sleeve top on clearance.
It’s a nice dress outfit, but also casual. They also bought
me a pair of shoes that didn’t fit. I took those back and
with an in store sale was able to buy two shoes for the
price they paid for one pair. I am a bargain shopper!
I feel so good about the look of these outfits on me.
I am officially a size 16 pant. Well two days ago I was,
the package of Oreo double stuff’s may be changing that!
Damn that is a good cookie with milk. It’s my fault for buying
them. We had them at the cottage in Tybee and they went
in about five minutes, so when I got home and shopped, I
bought a pack for us here. Big Mistake!!

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Remember the party ring that I bought and wore to Gatlinburg,
only to have the stone fall out? Jan arranged for a new stone
to be sent, (she actually sent two) and then Jan also bought
the matching pendant. I got these for my birthday and then left
town. I did glue the stone in before I left and wrapped both in
the little bag they came in at the last minute we were home.
I tucked it in my luggage. I could not find it the entire week in
Florida/Tybee!! I searched my bags several times. Thinking it
was just at home on my desk and I only thought I had packed it.
But it wasn’t at home either. I finally found them in my laptop
case, which was with me the whole time. Fricking brain dead!

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Speaking of the laptop…It almost died in St Augustine.
It was in the trunk as we stopped to check in at the
landlocked hotel we were upset with. When we left there
to wander until check in time, we decided to go to a free
wifi place and call expedia to see if we could cancel the
reservation. (we needed to look up the number for expedia
on line.)

We found a hotel and Jan asked them if we could sit in the
lobby and use their wifi for a minute. They said yes. I turned
it on, shocked already by the heat it was giving off from
traveling in the trunk. As I turned it on, it did alarming things,
and then told me a fatal error had occurred. It shut itself down.
I was freaking out!! It added to my anger at Jan and the situation
in general. My precious laptop was probably fried literally and I
couldn’t fix it or check it out further because it had gone to blue
screen and would not turn on. Later when we checked in and it
had spent time on the ac unit cooling off, it did turn on.
It only ate my total email program. The rest was fine! I lost very
little as there wasn’t much in that computers email program anyway.
I was so relieved! Don’t travel with your laptop in the trunk in Florida!
It might just melt.

here is the Klimt original…